This hunger

Hello!

I’m Elena North.

The story I’m about to tell is a long one,

so I hope you brought patience.

It takes me back to many years ago,

when I had just arrived in Glassbolt…

… in the nothingness.

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There was literally nothing but unfertile earth, a few stones, and the river.

But there I set up my shelter.

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All I would need the next time was set up on the ground floor.

An inflatable matress, uncomfy to say the least, made for my bed.

A chess table would be my only source of fun.

I had no running water, a few splashes must do in the next years to come.

And there was no way to get something to eat,

than grill the fish from the river.

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But I have still not presented myself.

ME – that is, a young woman who just graduated from the Wonder Child project.

When I was assigned the Glassbolt project, many doubted.

A female, and overmore a blonde. But hey!

I showed them.

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My neighbor Johnny was the first to arrive at my shelter. And I lured him in…

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Of course, cooking was the hardest part for me.

I love to eat good stuff, and I didn’t want to have only fish for the rest of my life.

So I went to the soup kitchen to present myself, and they gave me a job.

Now every day I cooked fish soup for the residents of Glassbolt.

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I liked my job. It was my mission.

And, the days alone in the shelter were long, very long.

Playing chess all by oneself can get rather boring.

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I went fishing every day to get the best I could for me and the others…

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… And then, more of the same. Waiting, playing chess, spending the days.

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And fish it was, every single freakin‘ day.

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But at least I gave it special spice every time.

The days passed… sleep, fish, cook fish, eat, sleep, fish…

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The radiation had its effects. I was scared to go out and meet the zombies.

So I mostly stayed inside my little shelter and only left it for work and for fishing, right behind my home.

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Oh, and then the bills. The local mob took away all the money I earned during the week.

It was senseless. I was really working for nothing.

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But I still loved my job.

It was something good,

giving good food to the community.

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I was „the woman on the grill“.

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Or „the hottie who serves the best fish in town“.

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Until late, I did not have a man in my life.

Only Johnny came over every once in a while to play chess with me.

We were neighbors, so I saw that as normal.

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It was not soon that I managed to go outside on a park bench and „just be there“.

I was too afraid of what might come to get me.

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But it was okay. I met some nice folk. Only I did not find the love of my life.

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Back home to fish.

My little everyday ritual.

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I was getting better and better at turning the fish into a delicious meal…

but still I wanted more.

I expected a life full of good food, and love. And maybe even a family…

… dreams…

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Then one day when Johnny was outside my door and I was only but wearing my nightrobe,

because I had just gotten up… I thought I’d risk it. What could go wrong?

So I planted a kiss on Johnnys soft lips and was too surprised when he responded eagerly.

Then:

THE BREAKTHROUGH AT WORK!!!

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I hosted a superb soup kitchen bigger than life –

and people from outside the region got wind. Now they were helping us, shipping in fresh food and repairing our gas lines and electricity.

Finally I could have a kitchenette that deserved its name.

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I was so happy!

Finally I could slice, dice, mix, fry, and do all other things cuisine in my own kitchen.

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Get out those steely knives!

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Slice and dice!

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Stir and stir again!

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Mmmm, what an aroma! That will taste awesome!

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OH. MY. GOD.

THIS IS HEAVEN IN A SOUP BOWL.

So with my one wish for good food come true,

I worked on my other wishes:

love, and a family…

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Johnny was easily convinced.

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I swear to you,

life is different when  you can have good food instead of fish half your life long.

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And of course, it felt great to see my family be able to have good food…

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… BUT I’M JUMPING TOO FAR FORWARD.

I’LL HAVE A SHORT PAUSE AND THEN GO ON TELLING MY STORY.

Until then, I remain

sincerely yours

Elena North